I read the daily mail, I know, how could I! Worst newspaper (if you could call it that) in publication.. but in the mornings or quiet times of my day I browse it out of boredom and there was an article on it about a young 15 year old girl who decided to jump in front of a train because her eating disorder had won.
And it really got me thinking about a few of my biggest fears as a parent, how will I cope if my daughters or son is wasting away in front of my eyes and how I will deal with it when it happens.
Parenting like anything is a learning curve, whatever you do wrong with your first you avoid with the second and make completely new mistakes, and looking back on my own childhood, I was an only child, a few mistakes had been made to mold the person I am today.
Reading that article about the 15 year old girl made me realize bullies are unavoidable and will pick apart the one thing you are most insecure about (in my case my weight) and create hell for you, so apart of you hopes that you show your children that the bullies cannot get to you which of course is easier said than done.
I tell my daughter she is beautiful and I tell my son to be proud of his birthmark under his chin but I worry will that be enough, will my encouragement be enough for them to ignore the bullies and hopefully tell someone that someone is being mean to them. Being bullied myself in school and in life I can’t help but be scared for them and their future…
Which also leads onto another parent fear of mine, what if my child becomes a bully? How will I deal with that, seeing my son or daughters pick on someone else because of their size or cultural background, and respect people for whatever they believe, even if they themselves do not agree with it.
I really just have to hope that I’ve been a good parent, to the best of my ability, which is tough when you yourself suffered with eating issues in the past and even today, I do tell them time and time again that if they have any problems they can talk to me.
Parenting is so stressful as every day is a different challenge and another thing will spring to mind to make me worry but I guess I will just keep on trying my best at it.
Mummy Cat x