Funny how quickly things go wrong..

September was meant to be the month of goals, working hard and getting my blogging life on track. But of course like all good plans, mental health creeps around the corner and sucks the life out of you. This month started with great confidence and is slowly ending with me feeling exhausted and full of self doubt.

I have a lot of work that needs to be done and my brain, being the abused mess that it is, is switching off and closing down when I need it to work hard.

After much thinking and stressing.. including a serious case of anxiety and a struggling feeling of that wonderful thing called motherhood loneliness, I am taking time off from ‘work’ on my blog. I don’t need to earn money from it, I am in a position of comfort with the fact my husband works full time to support us, so I am switching back to how I always wanted to keep my blog.

All about my life and my children, and whatever adventures we get up too.

I hope that everyone enjoys this little change on my blog, I will of course share reviews of products that I love along with my monthly Glossybox posts, its just sometimes so important to take care of yourself when you know something doesn’t feel right.

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Life has a funny way of completely screwing with you, at the minute its summer holidays, I am parenting on my own while my husband is away, and I am exhausted.

I had such a good start with the month of August. I felt productive and excited for my month ahead, but what I didn’t expect was my mental health to take a little bit of a downward spiral. Things suddenly turned good back in June, something changed and I didn’t feel anxious daily, the panic attacks died down and I started to feel positive. But then, summer holidays happened, and mainly August has been a hard month with Mr S being away for most of it. I felt like we weren’t spending any time together, and it really took a toll on me coping and being mentally healthy.

So I decided to sit down and write some tips to deal with the issues that come hand in hand with anxiety and dare I say it, depression, as the doctor who saw me about my anxiety also suspected I had some underline depression with it.

Take Time Out – 

I usually do a lot in the evenings, I game on my Xbox or even write on my phone but this past week I haven’t done anything. I have sat down on my sofa and enjoyed the silence of the children being asleep and the gentle jingle of my wind chimes. How often do you sit down and enjoy the simple experience of silence.

Clean Around the Home –

Unless you’ve been living under a rock for the past few weeks, people on Instagram have been going cleaning crazy all thanks to one woman and her grey home Mrs Hinch shares all her cleaning tips and like everyone else, I have followed suit and scrubbed what I can. It really has helped me clear my head a bit and dare I say it, I now enjoy cleaning my home.

Getting Creative – 

Finding the time to be creative can be a tricky one but I always feel that taking the time to get my camera out for just photography rather than blog photos really helps my mental health. Even something simple like editing photos or creating something on Photoshop can do wonders for me.

Watching Something you Love – 

This is something I do a lot, even if I have seen something a hundred times, being back with something you love can help in more ways than you think. A while back I was dealing with something that really dragged me down, and the one thing that helped was really helped, was Top Gear. As stupid as it sounds, it really helped me and even managed to put a smile back onto my face.

Go Outside –

I woke up the other morning feeling like a complete failure. I felt like my blog wasn’t working and nothing I did was good enough. So we went for a walk, I turned off my 4G and stepped outside for a little walk around the block. It felt amazing just to clear my head and just enjoy my children’s company. We explored the woods, ate blackberries and picked up some pinecones. We came home and I felt so much better.

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A new day always dawns and its so important to remember that its completely okay to feel not okay, take time to deal with things.

What things do you do to help when things just simply get to much?

 

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Where have I been I hear you wonder (not really hah) and frankly these few weeks have been mad, so I feel the need to update you on what has been going on in the life of Mummy Cat and her kittens.

Firstly we have all been under the weather, on Friday 13th I woke up absolutely full of cold, I was so ill that I even got Mr S to do the afternoon school run, I wanted to basically sleep and do nothing else and thankfully the children when they came home helped big time with everything but nothing could prepare us for what was going to happen on the Tuesday 16th, everyone went to bed as planned and all seemed happy to get to bed, no fuss and no arguments however about an hour into sleep there was this coughing and wet sound coming from our bedroom.. Robin threw up and my god it was gross as she had a full bottle of milk before going to bed so it was just horrible, which began a full week of sick children and naturally sick mummy and daddy followed suit and we all spent a lot of time that week hiding inside and feeling very VERY sorry for ourselves.

On the Saturday 14th however, despite the cold I was suffering with there was a plan in motion to get all of us over to Birmingham to meet up with the wonderful BC April babies once again, it was the one year anniversary meet up that I have been so excited for since it was booked up! the plan was to meet at the same place as we met before the ThinkTank, have some lunch and let the babies explore and go wild, this time however we went by car so my anxiety over the train was not even there and I felt so much better going in the car, Mr S drove us and I think it took us a good hour and a half to get there but it honestly was such a nice smooth drive up on the motorway.

Once we arrived we got to paying and then it was the hunt to find some of my BC April girls, there wasn’t as many as there was the last time we did this, which was sad but I think it was a lot better, I felt like I could talk to those who had turned up and it felt a lot more relaxed but the children had a blast running around and playing in the water, and I really loved catching up with the ladies and just seeing them enjoy their time in the water and all the wonderful interactive parts that are all over the ThinkTank, I still highly recommend you go to it at some point in the future as its so much fun for all the ages and there is a lovely area for the younger children to play with fake food and learn things about their surroundings.

Here’s a couple of photos that I took of the day –

I had planned to vlog the day but I got so caught up into the fun that the only footage I have is of us going up the M1 and some clips of windmills, I don’t think I am cut out for vlogging just yet haha, I enjoy taking photos more and I guess getting them into Lightroom and editing them up to look clear and pretty, and as I said before, if you ever get a chance to go to Birmingham I highly recommend you give the ThinkTank a go, it was such a fun day for everyone and with the water, no one really got to hot.

I have some more adventures to share with you shortly of our first family holiday but that will have to wait for another post, for now its lovely to be back into blogging after having such a long time off either being sick or being away.

How has the start of the summer holiday been for you?

until next time

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I feel that I need to share with you what happened to my blog at the start of the week..

…basically I am an idiot…

Sunday was like any other day, I had spent the whole week before being really careful with money because I wanted to make sure I had the max amount possible for when we go away in July so I didn’t spend much.. a few snacks here and of course my gas and electric needed doing but I felt confident that on sunday, I was going into Monday without any money issues what so ever!

During that week I had an unexpected weird transaction on my paypal account, it was a lot for me so I signed into my paypal, put in a claim and thankfully got the money back so when Sunday rolled around, I had £79 taken out of my account without me saying yes to it, I naturally panicked because that’s a lot of money and repeated the same again, I claimed it back but because it was a sunday I didn’t expect anything to go in or go out etc so when someone told me that my site wasn’t there.

Only me, Only I could break things, and amazingly I decided to break my blog a few days before Mr S went away to Sweden for a gaming event so there was this tiny window in which we could fix it, but thankfully, it was sorted.. I had to buy a new scheme with WordPress and hope that everything would go back to how it was before.. it did come back, mainly my old theme at first and some older posts that were dated back to January before I switched over to self hosted.. but thankfully its back and back in time for a important post that needed to go live on the 22nd..

Basically I had cancelled an important payment that broke my own blog, I mean who else could be that stupid haha! but its all fixed and I managed to get that post up in time and I can sit back and relax for the time being.

so let that be a little warning, don’t panic and do something stupid.. read first and always try to laugh at yourself!

until next time

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