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Today marks the second birthday of Mummy Cat Notes, I still remember the day I made it, it was raining and I had my tiny baby resting on my chest while I sat up at the computer reading other blogs and wanting to start one myself.. I had the name planned but I of course started over on Blogger and made the switch to WordPress early last year, because Mr S also uses WordPress for his website and I wanted to be able to get help when I needed it from him if things went wrong.

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How has year two been compared to year one, well frankly and honestly, its been hard.. on fathers day last year I was told what I said on twitter had upset someone, all I said was that I was proud of my husband working hard and how we didn’t need to rely so much on the government, I probably worded it wrong and like anything on the internet, it doesn’t matter how you say something, someone will take offence to it, I felt insulted and upset and that I was being made out to be a bad person when I honestly do not think that I am, it escalated into being accused of copying another blogger and then finally resting on me being accused of being bully to then end up being bullied myself by those who believe this other person over me, without even asking me for the other side of the story.. thankfully there is the amazing thing known as the block button and I made it my goal to completely block out anyone who associated with those who accuse me and compared to how I was back when it all happened, I don’t care anymore, I have come out of the other side with a smile on my face and know that while some may think I am a horrible person, I have many friends online and in real life and I realize now that those people who seek to make me feel like I am worth nothing shouldn’t even be on my radar and in the words of King Theoden from the Lord of the Rings trilogy..

‘You have no power here’

..but enough about that, I wanted this post to be a positive one because despite the bad times, there has been some amazing times in year two, I FINALLY plucked up the courage and started contacting brands, I was always so fearful of doing it but I made it my goal for 2018 to start doing it and I have done some really fun reviews and posts, and of course have plenty yet to come for year three! its really boost my confidence and I feel like I am stepping in the right direction with my blogging, I still want to keep everything personal, I always wanted to just use it as more of a journal to document days out and silly events along with products that I purchase and want to share, I always find it odd when everyone is obsessed with the selling part of blogging, cant you just enjoy telling your story as well as selling? I get that others want to make this a job but for me, right now and as always, blogging is a hobby that I have always loved, even back when I use to write in my little green notebook… however theses days its more about my children than which celebrity I have a crush on that week/month (Richard Hammond) but blogging now has helped me feel more creative than I have ever been, I am taking more photos and investing more and more time with writing not only here but I have even dabbled in some stories too, none will see the light of day of course but its been so wonderful just being able to stretch my braincells and maybe make me feel a little less of a mombie! I honestly had forgotten how much I love photography until I started my Photograph Sunday series, I make it my mission each week to take a photo of something so that I can add it to the post and its made me really learn how to use my camera and lenses properly and for the first time ever save up to buy my own lens rather than having to rely on my wonderful uncle for his help in that department.

I have a mad year three ahead of me, with meeting the amazing Becca from My Girls and Me in the summer holidays and even going to The London Baby Show in the autumn which I cannot wait to go and meet some wonderful brands and maybe even bump into more bloggers, Year Three is going to be my best year yet, and I am so excited to continue my journal as a blogger, sharing my world with those who want to read it and because I have been watching a LOT of Ugly Betty lately inspire others to create their own little space on the internet to rant and to connect with others.

Happy Birthday Mummy Cat Notes!!

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Since I can remember, I have always wanted to do something that helped others have children, I wasnt sure if I was going to go down the route of surrogacy, I have sat and read a load of information with that subject and keeping in mind that this was before I had my own children, it sounded like the perfect thing for me back when I was younger, I had this urge to experience pregnancy but back when I was a bit younger I dont think I was mentally ready (who is haha?) to have my own children..

but the only issue I had was mainly that I didn’t know where to even start, and it wasn’t until I had Robin that I didn’t reconsider it, mainly because one of my wonderful friends in my facebook baby group shared she herself was donating her eggs and suddenly the doors got opened up, I asked her all sorts of questions and the main one was who she was using to do all this with and she recommended Altrui and gave me a run down on what to do.

On the site there is a little questionnaire to fill in about yourself and your life, how many children you’ve had and other health related questions, one of them was if I have had issues with mental health and I decided to be completely honest and say that I do have social anxiety, there was also a section for what your personality is like and my personality now is miles different to what is once was before I had children so I had to ask Mr S to tell me what I was like.. shared hobbies and other bits and pieces.. it all felt so good to finally get it done after sitting on it for months thinking over things,

Mr S is so supportive of it all, his main worry was just that if they damage my ovaries when they remove the viable eggs because we aren’t done with our family just yet and one of my biggest worries is to not be able to have children and he doesn’t want me to do this and have that taken away from me, which I completely understand but I told him not to worry and they do this kind of thing all the time so the likelihood of something going wrong is minimal and of course I would need to have injections which with me being a complete coward I want him to do as I do not think that I am capable of doing myself.

I filled it all in and sent it off and on Tuesday I got an email back and despite the fact that I have had three healthy children, zero health issues besides mental health.. I am to fat to donate my eggs, I felt really down.. something I have always wanted to do now feels like its impossible, but they want me to lower my BMI only by 10, and I wish for the day when people stop using BMI, because we all know how useless and pointless it is and I now feel stuck..

So I did something even I am suprised by, I contacted my old Slimming World consultant and asked if there would be an issue with me coming back to the group..

This will be a long and hard journey but I want to one day help a family out there who are so desperate for a child have their dream come true, and if that means fighting my anxiety by going to Slimming World every week… if that means working my fat arse off.. I will do that.

on the 30th I am going back, only because my husband is away next week and I want to go alone without any children..

wish me luck..

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Sometimes with my blog I like to take time out on all the scheduled posts and give a little life update, because lets face it, that’s what blogging used to be about, sitting down and updating those who follow you about daily life and anything in-between and so I have been mildly afk due to some life stuff I thought it would be a good idea to shed some light on why I haven’t done much in the case of writing and blogging, hell even my twitter and instagram have taken a beating.

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This week has been one of the hardest I’ve dealt with lately, for the past two or three weeks, I’ve honestly lost count, Robin hasn’t been eating properly.. we’ve offered her food but she has this new thing of throwing whatever we’ve offered her onto the floor and then when she did eat something, it hasn’t been the most healthiest of things but to add to the stress, shes also had a horrific cold and those with children will understand that when one child has a cold, the parents suffer the most.

I cannot remember the day this all started, all I know is that this is the first time in a long while that I have almost passed out in a car journey back from food shopping on thursday evening.. I feel like a sick toddler is harder than a newborn, because lets face it, newborns will happily go back to sleep once they have been dealt with and the mornings arent as bad.. because you could just put the newborn back into its bed and it will let you have a few extra minutes of peace.

..a two year old however.. will throw her toys at you or scream at you if you so much as touch your head to the pillow, we’ve co-shared the bed, we’ve been tough and told her to go back to sleep but its now at the point where bedtime or.. I guess night time is a big struggle and its actually caused me to really judge my ability of being a mother and really push my sanity to its limits and while it has been difficult, I have tried to look at it all with a positive outlook, I have been getting lots of cuddles of Robin and while I haven’t done much writing on the actual blog I have so many ideas written down for lots of posts for the month of May which I am hoping to get written and posted once her routine goes back to normal and thankfully because of her being poorly Mr S has been doing the school runs for me allowing me to not have to get makeup on and let my skin breath a little…

Funny how a few sick days can sometimes be a little curse as well a blessing.. and with a better nights sleep my brain is feeling a lot less fuzzy and Robin is feeling better in herself, back to her demonic little self!

Which in turn hopefully means that next week will be the most productive week yet!

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I have been tagged in a wonderful little get to know you kind of tag, I love tags as they just give you an opportunity to take time out with prepping and planning and simply slow down. I want to thank the wonderful Angela who tagged me, you can find her blog here and her Sunshine Blogger post here and seeing that I have been pretty much sick with a bad cold and chest infection for the past week and haven’t really had the time or the energy to sit down and write anything besides ‘ugghh i’m sick’ on my twitter.

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// RULES //

  1. Thank the blogger/s who have nominated you in your post and also link their sunshine blogger post to.
  2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger has left for you.
  3.  Nominate 11 other bloggers to receive the award.
  4. Write them 11 questions
  5. Include the rules and display the logo within your post.

// Questions & Answers //

  1. Why did you start blogging? – I used to blog years and years ago but in private, I had started reading a few blogs here and there on twitter and was inspired to start it up again, it felt like it would be a wonderful way to document days out other things to look back on in future.
  2. What has been your most successful post? – A silly post I did about this game called Skyrim.. I put it onto Stumbleupon and it just took off. you can give it a read here
  3. Describe yourself in three words. – Mummy, Gamer, Nerd
  4. If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go (and why) ? – I would love to visit more of england if I am honest, I dont like flying and I am scared of everything so I’d love to see more of my homeland.
  5. What was the last thing that made you laugh? – Robin saying to Kai ‘Alright Kai?’ when I met them from school.
  6. What is the last thing you watched and why? – The Grand Tour and why because I tend to watch them before I let my children watch them to make sure there aren’t many bad words and frankly I love those three idiots!
  7. If you had a theme song to your life what would it be?– U2 Stuck in a Moment
  8. Are you a morning or night person? – It depends on what night ive had before, some days I can get up and get going and others are just hard work haha
  9. What is your biggest pet peeve? – People who talk and eat at the same time, pisses me off completely, cant you just wait to finish eating before you talk to me?
  10. Which would you give up: Your car or your phone? – Honestly.. I am going to say neither haha
  11. Tell us your most embarrassing moment!– There are far to many to mention haha I am sorry

// QUESTIONS FOR YOU //

  1. What is your Starbucks order?
  2. Who has been your biggest inspiration?
  3. Where is the one place you would love to visit?
  4. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
  5. Tea or Coffee?
  6. One game that you can waste hours playing?
  7. Favorite film?
  8. Funniest childhood memory?
  9. Biggest blogging goal?
  10. One meal that you would gladly eat every day?
  11. Favorite curse word?

// SUNSHINE BLOGGER NOMINATION //

Becca
Britt
Vicki
Kris

Until next time

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Welcome to the 100 Truths tag!! its where you learn a little bit more about me and some opinions along the way, I was tagged by the wonderful Ruth from Mummy and the Mexicans and I hope you enjoy my answers.

The Basics.

1 What’s your name?
Sarah, boring name if you ask me.
2 Any nicknames or aliases?
I am known as iLemmy on many other places on the internet, which is also my xbox gamertag.
 3 Your gender?
Female
4 Your star sign?
 Aries!
5 How old are you?
I am the ripe ol’ age of 31
6 Your relationship status?
 Currently married, almost for 5 years now, Im honestly surprised hes lasted this long hah
7 Any children?
 I have three beautiful, if demonic children.
8 Any pets?
Just the one, Loki my Mainecoon.
9 Any tattoos or piercings?
 Just piercings in the ears, three in each lobes and one daith piercing which you can read about here
if you fancy.
10 What do you like about yourself?
 I like my sense of humor, my husband claims I lost it when I had Kai but its just observational and kinda dark, which has to be honest caused some issues in the past haha!
11 What do you dislike about yourself?
Oh god, do you have a week? I self doubt, I hate most things about myself, Sometimes I will look in the mirror and honestly hate the image looking back at me, I hate that I trust people far to easily and I hate that I say sorry as well..I say that far to much.
Generally I just hate me.
 12 Righty or lefty?
Righty.

 Lasts

13 The last thing you drank:
A cup of English Breakfast
14 The last thing you ate:
 A Galaxy Ripple.. and it was GOOOD!!
15 Your last phone call:
 My mum, shes pretty much the only person I call and answer the phone too
16 Your last text message:
 Once again, my mum.

17 Your last email:
Nothing exciting, my emails aren’t as fun and personal as they once was, just some emails from WordPress and a notification telling me I have a twitter DM.

 18 The last song you listened to:
 According to my iTunes, the last song I listened to was Togo Te Pate from the Moana soundtrack, its Robins favorite song and its often will be repeated daily.
19 The last book you read:
 Currently reading The Rook, not finished it yet.
20 The last time you cried:
 The other day, Not sure what I cried about.. sometimes the wind blows and I cry
21 The last blog you read:
This one by Becca
22 The last person you spoke to:
 My mum, on the phone
23 The last place you visited:
 We all went to Keddington with the family to visit Mr S’s nan for the day
24 Your last holiday abroad:
 Not to sure if this counts but I went to Dublin for my 16th birthday, that was the last time I went somewhere that wasn’t inside England.

Your beliefs and opinions

49 Do you believe in aliens?
 Yes I do, the truth is out there of course.
50 Do you believe in miracles?
 I believe in good luck
51 Do you believe in the power of positive thinking?
 Yes! While it can be hard to think positive sometimes it can really help when you have tough days and the anxiety is slowly creeping in.
52 Do you believe in love at first sight?
 I am not completely sure on this one, people can fall in love quickly but on looks (because thats biological nature to find an ‘attractive’ mate in the terms of health etc) but to truly fall in love requires trust and getting to know the person.
53 Can money make you happy?
 Yes and No, it cannot bring you love or joy but if you can afford to remove any dept that is causing stress then that can make you happier.
54 Would you describe yourself as a feminist?
 I believe people should be equal.. and from what I’ve seen of feminist is some don’t believe that all should be equal, just that men shouldn’t have a voice.. everyone should have a voice and an opinion.
55 Are you pro-life or pro-choice?
 Pro Choice BUT.. personally I couldn’t do it.
56 Do you have strong political beliefs?
 Only that we shouldn’t judge others for what they believe in.
57 Do you have strong religious beliefs?
 Not really, I have been reading a lot lately on pagan beliefs but I don’t have any strong beliefs
58 What do you think the most important thing you can give a child is?
 love and guidance, you are their teacher in this world and of course their boss, you need to guide them to make the right choices (within their opinions).

Right now

59 Are you eating anything right now?
 I am about to eat some lunch, which is a nice mini cheese pizza!
60 Are you drinking anything right now?
 Water
61 What are you listening to right now?
 I am currently watching some Youtube videos while my smallest naps, so I can hear the wonderful Achievement Hunter.
62 What are you thinking about right now?
 Not a lot, I never know what to say when I am asked this because its like… well now I am just thinking of this question now haha
63 What are you waiting for right now?
 The weekend, I feel like this week is taking such a long time. I hate weeks like this
64 What are you most excited about right now?
 Sunday, all my family are meeting up for a meal as my aunt and her family went to Australia for Christmas plus its my mums birthday on the 24th so its going to be a great get together
65 What’s your pet hate right now?
 People who eat food and then talk to you, either don’t eat and talk or wait until you are finished before opening your mouth.
66 What’s your favourite thing right now?
 My camera.
67 If you weren’t answering these questions, what would you be doing right now?
 Probably writing posts and taking photos, its nap time and I use my time with Robin being down in her bed to get photos done for post.

Firsts

68 Your first best friend:
 Her name was Bianca, she moved to another city and this was the time when social media wasnt a thing so I never spoke to her again. I wish I could find her and see how her life is but there are a lot of people with the same name as her and it was over 20 years ago.
74 Your first job:
 I was a cleaner in a local hospital, I worked weekends and in the evenings, it was great and good pay as it was unsociable hours.
75: Your first childhood memory: 
 My mums dog Shandy biting my ear, she didn’t mean to, I think I annoyed her and it wasn’t like a bad bite, more like a nip

Which would you choose?

76 Love or money?
Love
77 Twitter or Facebook?
 I like them both, I have met so many wonderful people on twitter and I am in some fantastic groups on facebook.. hard to choose.
78 Hook up or relationship?
 Relationship.
79 Dogs or cats?
 100% Cats!
80 Coffee or tea?
 tea of course 🙂
81 Beer or wine?
 I dont really drink but if I had to choose id pick beer
82 Sweet or savoury?
 I cant pick, I like them both depending on the mood
83 Introvert or extrovert?
 Introvert
84 Vampires or werewolves?
 I cant choose! sorry haha
85 Seaside or countryside?
 Once again I cannot choose, I love both locations
86 Summer or winter?
 Autumn 😉
87 Books or movies?
 Probably books, I do enjoy films but nothing beats the smell of a book
88 Horror or comedy
 Probably horror

A few random questions to finish on

89 Do you wish you could change your past?
 Sometimes, but I feel like I wouldn’t be the person I am today without things from my past.
90 What’s your dream job?
 Being a mother I think its a pretty good job so far, exhausting, underpaid but its so rewarding.
91 What’s your guilty pleasure?
 Top Gear/The Grand Tour – those three idiots can bring a smile on my face in dark days and make me forget my anxiety when it gets to much.
92 What are you afraid of?
 Trains and train tracks, I did go on a train but it was hard going and I panicked when we didn’t go according to schedule and almost missed our return journey… couldn’t get me on one again mind
93 What was the first thing you wanted to be when you grew up?
 I don’t think I ever knew what I wanted to be, I don’t think I wanted to grow up and deal with adulthood.. still don’t haha
94 If you could have any super power, what would it be?
 Invisibility, it would be wonderful if people didnt see me for a few days, I could go hide..
95 If you could change anything about your life what would it be?
 There are lots, I wish i wasn’t so anxious and apologetic
96 Would you want immortality?
 I am not sure, Id love to see what the future holds and I don’t like the idea of dying but living forever would be pretty sad while everyone around me dies.. I couldn’t do it
97 If you could interview anyone alive or dead who would you choose?
 Judy Garland, However I wouldn’t know what I would say to her.
98 Would you say you are happy?
 I guess I am, tired.. but happy.
99 What one piece of advice would you give to yourself at age eighteen?
 Be careful of who you trust.
100 Where would you like to be in five years’ time?
Still married, probably in a new home and I’d like to hope another baby on the way, working and earning a living from my blog too.
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