Funny how quickly things go wrong..

September was meant to be the month of goals, working hard and getting my blogging life on track. But of course like all good plans, mental health creeps around the corner and sucks the life out of you. This month started with great confidence and is slowly ending with me feeling exhausted and full of self doubt.

I have a lot of work that needs to be done and my brain, being the abused mess that it is, is switching off and closing down when I need it to work hard.

After much thinking and stressing.. including a serious case of anxiety and a struggling feeling of that wonderful thing called motherhood loneliness, I am taking time off from ‘work’ on my blog. I don’t need to earn money from it, I am in a position of comfort with the fact my husband works full time to support us, so I am switching back to how I always wanted to keep my blog.

All about my life and my children, and whatever adventures we get up too.

I hope that everyone enjoys this little change on my blog, I will of course share reviews of products that I love along with my monthly Glossybox posts, its just sometimes so important to take care of yourself when you know something doesn’t feel right.

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Life has a funny way of completely screwing with you, at the minute its summer holidays, I am parenting on my own while my husband is away, and I am exhausted.

I had such a good start with the month of August. I felt productive and excited for my month ahead, but what I didn’t expect was my mental health to take a little bit of a downward spiral. Things suddenly turned good back in June, something changed and I didn’t feel anxious daily, the panic attacks died down and I started to feel positive. But then, summer holidays happened, and mainly August has been a hard month with Mr S being away for most of it. I felt like we weren’t spending any time together, and it really took a toll on me coping and being mentally healthy.

So I decided to sit down and write some tips to deal with the issues that come hand in hand with anxiety and dare I say it, depression, as the doctor who saw me about my anxiety also suspected I had some underline depression with it.

Take Time Out – 

I usually do a lot in the evenings, I game on my Xbox or even write on my phone but this past week I haven’t done anything. I have sat down on my sofa and enjoyed the silence of the children being asleep and the gentle jingle of my wind chimes. How often do you sit down and enjoy the simple experience of silence.

Clean Around the Home –

Unless you’ve been living under a rock for the past few weeks, people on Instagram have been going cleaning crazy all thanks to one woman and her grey home Mrs Hinch shares all her cleaning tips and like everyone else, I have followed suit and scrubbed what I can. It really has helped me clear my head a bit and dare I say it, I now enjoy cleaning my home.

Getting Creative – 

Finding the time to be creative can be a tricky one but I always feel that taking the time to get my camera out for just photography rather than blog photos really helps my mental health. Even something simple like editing photos or creating something on Photoshop can do wonders for me.

Watching Something you Love – 

This is something I do a lot, even if I have seen something a hundred times, being back with something you love can help in more ways than you think. A while back I was dealing with something that really dragged me down, and the one thing that helped was really helped, was Top Gear. As stupid as it sounds, it really helped me and even managed to put a smile back onto my face.

Go Outside –

I woke up the other morning feeling like a complete failure. I felt like my blog wasn’t working and nothing I did was good enough. So we went for a walk, I turned off my 4G and stepped outside for a little walk around the block. It felt amazing just to clear my head and just enjoy my children’s company. We explored the woods, ate blackberries and picked up some pinecones. We came home and I felt so much better.

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A new day always dawns and its so important to remember that its completely okay to feel not okay, take time to deal with things.

What things do you do to help when things just simply get to much?

 

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Another month is long gone, and I am late with this post but that’s no matter, better late than never as they say. Looking back at last months goals, a lot of them didn’t happen, I didn’t spent much time with Dann and I damn well didn’t go for walks, it has simply been far to hot for that!

I did however reach my twitter goals finally after what felt like forever, I didn’t get my Instagram goals but, lets be real here, that is one of the harder ones to crack.

August itself is going to be tough, Dann is away a lot and its the final few weeks of the holidays from school, we all know how on edge the children can get when they’re away from school for so long, It is honestly safe to say this month is full of stress and exhaustion.

Life –

Be More Positive – Anxiety has hit me a lot last month, I don’t know why because July was such a good month for me personally but I haven’t been the best in the mental health sense, I have let my fears get the better of me and honestly felt like I wanted to stop blogging all together, I haven’t really told anyone about it because I didn’t want to really bother anyone, but August, despite the mad stress that its going to be, I want to be more positive.

Loose Weight – I know, I know, I say this a lot, but this time I feel different, I feel confident and determined to actually do something about my fat, I tried on a pair of jeans and they didn’t fit, so I decided to, rather than buy a bigger size, to try and I use the word try because I feel like its less stress, to loose some weight with calorie counting, as of today I have lost 5lbs … so here’s hoping I can continue and reach my goal, which has been set by my little calorie tracker as Christmas Eve..

Save Money – I think we all need to do this from now, as in four short months time the Big C is back and I want to be prepared!

Blog –

My blog is going okay, I guess I am happy with it, I have just started changing things up a bit and I like what I have done with the header, which I made myself, nothing fancy but I am pretty pleased with how it looks and fits, writing is going fantastic, I installed Yoast to help with SEO and making sure everything makes sense, and I feel like its made a little bit of a difference in view count, But of course it is early days as its only been one week.

I have been obsessed with Pinterest again, I never realized how much of a useful tool it could be and I find myself wasting hours pinning and reading posts from it, and this has also helped my blog views as well.

My photography is getting better, I try and take my camera with me whenever I go out because you just never know when its needed and I love it, I have tried to vlog but because I am so into the moment it never happens.

Social Media –

Pretty happy with my social media, I hit my twitter target of 2000 so realistically, because we have four months until the end of the year, like to hit at least 2300 by the start of 2019, its a big goal in a short space of time but I do feel it is achievable, Now with Instagram, I doubt very much it will grow how I want it.

I also want to start to work on my Facebook page as well as it sort of got pushed aside in favor of Twitter which I find a lot easier to handle.

All these social medias are just exhausting!

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What are your goals for this month?

 

 

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Where have I been I hear you wonder (not really hah) and frankly these few weeks have been mad, so I feel the need to update you on what has been going on in the life of Mummy Cat and her kittens.

Firstly we have all been under the weather, on Friday 13th I woke up absolutely full of cold, I was so ill that I even got Mr S to do the afternoon school run, I wanted to basically sleep and do nothing else and thankfully the children when they came home helped big time with everything but nothing could prepare us for what was going to happen on the Tuesday 16th, everyone went to bed as planned and all seemed happy to get to bed, no fuss and no arguments however about an hour into sleep there was this coughing and wet sound coming from our bedroom.. Robin threw up and my god it was gross as she had a full bottle of milk before going to bed so it was just horrible, which began a full week of sick children and naturally sick mummy and daddy followed suit and we all spent a lot of time that week hiding inside and feeling very VERY sorry for ourselves.

On the Saturday 14th however, despite the cold I was suffering with there was a plan in motion to get all of us over to Birmingham to meet up with the wonderful BC April babies once again, it was the one year anniversary meet up that I have been so excited for since it was booked up! the plan was to meet at the same place as we met before the ThinkTank, have some lunch and let the babies explore and go wild, this time however we went by car so my anxiety over the train was not even there and I felt so much better going in the car, Mr S drove us and I think it took us a good hour and a half to get there but it honestly was such a nice smooth drive up on the motorway.

Once we arrived we got to paying and then it was the hunt to find some of my BC April girls, there wasn’t as many as there was the last time we did this, which was sad but I think it was a lot better, I felt like I could talk to those who had turned up and it felt a lot more relaxed but the children had a blast running around and playing in the water, and I really loved catching up with the ladies and just seeing them enjoy their time in the water and all the wonderful interactive parts that are all over the ThinkTank, I still highly recommend you go to it at some point in the future as its so much fun for all the ages and there is a lovely area for the younger children to play with fake food and learn things about their surroundings.

Here’s a couple of photos that I took of the day –

I had planned to vlog the day but I got so caught up into the fun that the only footage I have is of us going up the M1 and some clips of windmills, I don’t think I am cut out for vlogging just yet haha, I enjoy taking photos more and I guess getting them into Lightroom and editing them up to look clear and pretty, and as I said before, if you ever get a chance to go to Birmingham I highly recommend you give the ThinkTank a go, it was such a fun day for everyone and with the water, no one really got to hot.

I have some more adventures to share with you shortly of our first family holiday but that will have to wait for another post, for now its lovely to be back into blogging after having such a long time off either being sick or being away.

How has the start of the summer holiday been for you?

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Today marks the second birthday of Mummy Cat Notes, I still remember the day I made it, it was raining and I had my tiny baby resting on my chest while I sat up at the computer reading other blogs and wanting to start one myself.. I had the name planned but I of course started over on Blogger and made the switch to WordPress early last year, because Mr S also uses WordPress for his website and I wanted to be able to get help when I needed it from him if things went wrong.

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How has year two been compared to year one, well frankly and honestly, its been hard.. on fathers day last year I was told what I said on twitter had upset someone, all I said was that I was proud of my husband working hard and how we didn’t need to rely so much on the government, I probably worded it wrong and like anything on the internet, it doesn’t matter how you say something, someone will take offence to it, I felt insulted and upset and that I was being made out to be a bad person when I honestly do not think that I am, it escalated into being accused of copying another blogger and then finally resting on me being accused of being bully to then end up being bullied myself by those who believe this other person over me, without even asking me for the other side of the story.. thankfully there is the amazing thing known as the block button and I made it my goal to completely block out anyone who associated with those who accuse me and compared to how I was back when it all happened, I don’t care anymore, I have come out of the other side with a smile on my face and know that while some may think I am a horrible person, I have many friends online and in real life and I realize now that those people who seek to make me feel like I am worth nothing shouldn’t even be on my radar and in the words of King Theoden from the Lord of the Rings trilogy..

‘You have no power here’

..but enough about that, I wanted this post to be a positive one because despite the bad times, there has been some amazing times in year two, I FINALLY plucked up the courage and started contacting brands, I was always so fearful of doing it but I made it my goal for 2018 to start doing it and I have done some really fun reviews and posts, and of course have plenty yet to come for year three! its really boost my confidence and I feel like I am stepping in the right direction with my blogging, I still want to keep everything personal, I always wanted to just use it as more of a journal to document days out and silly events along with products that I purchase and want to share, I always find it odd when everyone is obsessed with the selling part of blogging, cant you just enjoy telling your story as well as selling? I get that others want to make this a job but for me, right now and as always, blogging is a hobby that I have always loved, even back when I use to write in my little green notebook… however theses days its more about my children than which celebrity I have a crush on that week/month (Richard Hammond) but blogging now has helped me feel more creative than I have ever been, I am taking more photos and investing more and more time with writing not only here but I have even dabbled in some stories too, none will see the light of day of course but its been so wonderful just being able to stretch my braincells and maybe make me feel a little less of a mombie! I honestly had forgotten how much I love photography until I started my Photograph Sunday series, I make it my mission each week to take a photo of something so that I can add it to the post and its made me really learn how to use my camera and lenses properly and for the first time ever save up to buy my own lens rather than having to rely on my wonderful uncle for his help in that department.

I have a mad year three ahead of me, with meeting the amazing Becca from My Girls and Me in the summer holidays and even going to The London Baby Show in the autumn which I cannot wait to go and meet some wonderful brands and maybe even bump into more bloggers, Year Three is going to be my best year yet, and I am so excited to continue my journal as a blogger, sharing my world with those who want to read it and because I have been watching a LOT of Ugly Betty lately inspire others to create their own little space on the internet to rant and to connect with others.

Happy Birthday Mummy Cat Notes!!

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