I am a Next addict… there.. Ive said it.. and with the sale I get excited and happy, I wouldn’t be able to use the VIP without my mother, who allows me to use hers.
Here is my little haul from the sale 🙂
Hello again lovely people, time for a little share..
Two weeks ago I rejoined my local slimming world, I had been going during my pregnancy and only gained a small amount of weight, tried to go back during the summer holidays and it didnt go to well.. so decided to return the week the schools go back and hit it hard.. and I did, I charged up my fit bit, took extra long walks back to home and to school and really worked damn hard at my eating and writing down what I had.. I never went over my syn count and did everything exactly to the book..
Weigh day came and I was anxious as every time I restarted I only managed to loose 1/2lb… everyone else around me who joined the same week manages to drop half a stone in one go… I dont clearly but I didn’t have diet cola like I did the first time I joined and while I was nervous I was confident that I would hopefully loose more than just half a stupid pound…
I went in to group early and helped set things up, stepped onto the scales and… I gained.. half a pound!!! My little fat heart broke.. I got off the scales, smiled at the consultant and cried on my walk back home.. I have dealt with let downs before, but not when you have worked so hard, and want something so badly.. I felt like a failure, I am a failure..
I didn’t go the second week, I spent the rest of the week in a paranoid anxiety ridden ball..
I decided to go it alone.. I cannot deal with that feeling of disappointment each week, the anxiety each week and I am sure my nails will thank me for not going back because every wednesday I would bite them out of nerves.
I have done it before and I can do it again..
I am not going to starve but I hope to use the knowledge I gained from slimming world, I still have my book and can work with that.. But I will not be returning to a group.
I dont know what else to say… I just had to get that off my chest..
and I feel better for it 🙂
until next time
I have been extremely busy since my two eldest kittens went back to school, my smallest kitten has suddenly become very clingy so in-between comforting her, I’ve been trying to get our house back to normal after the mental six weeks off.
Whats happened since I last talked about my life?
Honestly.. not a lot!! I have been prepping and planning for lots of little craft stuff to post about during October and December as who doesn’t like DIY Halloween and Christmas goodies! Robin (small kitten) has finally had her 16 week jabs at 22 weeks.. better late than never and is now currently snoozing away the aftereffects of it.
Mr S is planning a trip to Germany next year for Gamescom… after what I experienced the last time he went, I firmly believe I cannot deal very well on my own after all, without his trip to Germany last year my cat Loki wouldn’t have bitten my foot, I wouldn’t have been on antibiotics and Robin wouldn’t be here.. hah!!!
I had some delightful dental work done .. a crown fitted, its extremely weird and im slowly getting used to it but after having teeth pulled and many fillings I am glad my treatment has ended and I am back to regular 6 months check ups!
and finally my actual cat Artie hasn’t been very well, since I came home from the hospital with Robin hes stopped eating, after a trip to the vets and some medicine hes eating again but is still very skinny, I am hoping that when winter rolls around he gains back some weight and doesn’t continue looking like something out of a Tim Burton film!
until next time which will be a lot sooner than a few weeks..
Add tea candles and ta-daaah! you have a new place to pop your tea candles in.. now that its nearly the darker months I can see myself doing this a bit more.
Toodles for now