So I’d like to introduce you to an A-Z series which will be posted once a week on a Thursday.. the first week I am going to talk about.
I am un-diagnosed, I know many people consider anyone who hasn’t talked to a doctor has someone who used google to look up their symptoms, while Doctor Google isn’t the most reliable person you could ask ‘whats wrong with me’ I did exactly that a while ago while feeling panicky about having to do something with other people, I knew I was scared to talk to strangers and sometimes the thought of heading into town can cause my stomach to turn and my heart to pound away… so I used a checklist from the NHS website and it classed me as having Social Anxiety.
It can be a very funny thing, sometimes I am completely okay with people, it obviously depends on the person but if I feel that I can trust someone, I can talk to them easier, but even when I am having to go talk to a friend I feel worried about doing it.
It comes and goes, like the other day I went shopping with R and got my daith piercing done but sometimes I am completely scared to go out and deal with the world, I know I need to go talk to a doctor about it but, with the territory of talking to a stranger, I honestly feel I am not truly read to do that, mainly because my local doctors are a little fat bias and tend to blame anything that’s wrong with me on my diet or my weight.
I think going on from this people need to understand that just because I haven’t had a doctor write down that I have it, doesn’t mean that I don’t suffer from some form of mental health issues which is extremely unfair on those who hide away from fear of making that first move to reach and talk to someone.
I will get there, I am working on my problems one day at a time and I will come out of this strong… I hope..