Now this is different to a fear as a parent, I’ve carried this little fear for a while now and I am unsure of where it originated from, but I know its taken hold of me and as actually prevented me from doing things I would do almost on a weekly basics..
I am scared of trains.
I used to travel on them all the time, hell I have been up to Inverness on a train before, but for the life of me, I cannot pinpoint where and why I suddenly became so scared of a mode of transport.. It makes no sense what so ever.. I wouldn’t really call it an irrational fear because trains can cause a lot of damage, for example, you cant die from a high speeding ball of cotton wool or a button can you?
But you can die from a impact from a train, So.. I assume that my fear of trains stems from my fears and worries about dying suddenly and unexpectedly.
Its completely different from my jumping at the sight of a spider, I will get rid of a spider if needed, obviously if Mr S is about I will ask him to remove the spider for me.. but the fear of the train has me waking up at night from nightmares of falling under them or being stuck in a train crash, Mr S thinks that because I once lived very close to a train station in my old town that I would hear the horns and rattles from the tracks and that would be interrupted into my dreams.. but it still doesn’t explain why just the thought of going on one makes my stomach turn and heart race.
Here’s a link to a wiki page about the fear of trains. and it seems to just say that any fear of trains has something to do with repressed sexuality (Thanks Freud) but I doubt that very much hah, I think at some point, on my many travels around London I have witnessed someone go under a train, I have been on trains that have had a casualty, its a horrible situation for everyone, the driver more so..
I think that’s where my fear has come from, I am trying desperately to over come it, I have too, I am going to Birmingham this month to visit some ladies I met through BabyCentre so I need to over come it and try to travel by train again…
Watch as the train I will be travelling on have a big accident on the day I am due to go..
Until next time
(I will share more information about my up coming trip soon.. keep those eyes peeled.